Thursday, July 19, 2018

Spiritual Self-Defense: Master Your Biggest Enemy - Part One

Well, we've made it to the confusing-as-ever fifth installment of Anna Sofia and Elizabeth Botkin's blog series "Spiritual Self-Defense".  In a refreshing change, this post attempts to focus on the spiritual aspects of how we choose to live.  As always, I disagree with 90% of their beliefs - but I am happier when the post fits the overall theme.

The first three paragraphs rehash the Botkin Sisters theme of "Biblical heroines fought back!".  Honestly, I'm not in the mood to explain why most of the references are misrepresentations, but maybe someday I'll feel like going on a Bible quest.  Ironically, many of the women the Botkin Sisters lionize from the Bible used sex as part of their plot but the Sisters ignore that simple reality.

The fourth paragraph, though, begins with a set of questions that threw me a bit:

Those of us who have never faced intense pressure from a seducer or predator may wonder: How would we actually respond to a situation like that? How strong are we, really?

My train of thought: "Of course I know how strong I am!  After dealing with the interpersonal warfare between girls that is late middle school/junior high...oh, but the Botkin crowd didn't....huh.  That's a bit of a puzzler for them..."

CP/QF families live a strange contradiction.  They are lights on a hill to reform the entire world - but they raise their children to be exceptionally sheltered from all peers who aren't exactly like their family of origin in terms of belief.    There's a whole spiel about protecting their children from bad influences that will lead the kids astray and not throwing pearls before swine... but they are also sending the message to their kids that the kids cannot be trusted to stand firm against temptation.

If I wanted to raise little Christian war-arrows (*rolls eyes*), I'd be dumping said arrowlets into peer groups all_the_time starting when they could talk.   The best way to figure out what strengths and weaknesses a kid has is to watch the kid in action.  I'm sure parents could figure out which kids are likely to flee the family belief system and which are super-straight arrows pretty early on.

After this question is a long, jumbled list of actions that a reader can use to see how well they might stand up to an attacker, an abuser or a boyfriend who wants some physical affection.  I've sorted the list by topic.  The first theme I want to discuss can be labeled as "stuff most people work on with platonic friends long before they start dating".

  • Do we say “yes” to the fears that make us keep silent when we know there’s something that needs to be said?
  • Do we say “yes” to the pressure to go along with things friends want to do, even when we know it’s a bad idea?
  • Do we say “yes” to the temptation to do nothing, when doing something sounds really hard and scary?
  • Do we back up the things we say with our actions?

If a child is raised in a diverse peer group, they've gotten some practice in these skills long before they are old enough to date.    Even among a close group of friends, there are always times where one person is out of line and needs to be told to stop their behavior.   
  • I had three close friends - E., B., and J. - in junior high.  E and B  had a love-hate relationship where they would be inseparable for 1 week (to the point of excluding J and I), interact normally for two weeks, then have a blowout fight and refuse to be around the other person - which meant I had to hang out with E while J friend hung out with B which meant J and I couldn't spend much time together until E and B made up.  J and I realized this pattern sucked for us - so we had a sit-down discussion with the other two during their "calm" period.  We informed them that they could do whatever they wanted - but we were not going to be forced to partner up with them while they weren't speaking to each other.  E and B thought this was funny; they weren't ever going to fight again!   Well, during the next explosive period, J and I ended up sitting together at lunch while E and B each sat alone scowling at each other and us.   This repeated a few times - and then E and B stopped having blowout fights!  Turns out the fun of dramatics fights aren't worth 1-2 weeks of sulking alone....
  • I went to a massive sleepover where all the girls from our class were invited in 6th or 7th grade.  E and B were at different schools by then and J wasn't interested in going so it was just me and 15 female classmates.  We had fun.  A few guys from our class came over and we did their make-up.   Eventually, things settled down when three of the girls decided to pull a prank on a former classmate who lived a few blocks away.   I demurred; pulling a prank on someone we hadn't seen in years seemed really mean and sneaking out at night was one of those things that my mom would react very strongly to when she found out about it.  (I was a pragmatist even then; I didn't trust that my classmates would be able not get caught - or keep their mouths shut if they pulled it off.)  So....I was left behind with three other girls who had some common sense.  Ironically, we four were the people who could have probably pulled the prank off, but I digress.  Turns out that four girls in a small house sounds remarkably different than 15 girls...and they were busted about 10 minutes after they left the house and long before they had gotten off the block.
  • I really enjoy public speaking now, but for years I was terrified of giving speeches or presentations.  I nearly passed out before giving a presentation in my freshman English class; I remember sweating profusely while shaking nearly uncontrollably in the hallway before I began.  After that, I decided I needed to get over that fear.  I started by offering to do readings at church since that was about the least threatening audience I could think of.  I also read books to groups of kids at the library. When I was older, I would volunteer to do daily readings at Mass - with only a single silent read-through just before Mass began.  Over time, the fear faded and was replaced with excitement and anticipation as I became a talented speaker.

Parents who homeschool well make sure their kids have experiences like these by giving them unsupervised peer time when they are old enough and by keeping their kids involved in outside activities that challenge the kids.   Parents who are more dedicated to indoctrination through homeschooling don't.

Scattered in the list is the second theme of "If you've had sexual feelings, you're not a real victim".
  • Do we say “yes” to inner emotional warm-fuzzies after a guy has flattered us?
  • Do we say “yes” to the temptation (we all have it) to dress or act in a way that will draw men’s eyes to us?
  • Do we say “no” when a guy friend gives us attention as though we were something other than “a sister, with all purity”?
More victim-blaming from the Botkin - but the questions are really bad advice in a culture that requires marriage to become an adult. 

 The second question is deeply ironic coming from the Botkin Sisters who espouse that women shouldn't dress to attract men - but being frumpy is an offense to God's Creation. 

Assuming girls can find an outfit they feel is pretty but not attractive to men, the other two ideas are going to send potential suitors the wrong message.  Jane Austen made this clear about Jane Bennet in "Pride and Prejudice" since Jane was so shy and undemonstrative naturally that Mr. Darcy was able to convince Mr. Bingley that Jane wasn't that into him.  At least Jane Bennet was allowed to dance with Mr. Bingley and have unchaperoned conversations with him; what hope is there for a good CP/QF boy to figure out which girls may be willing to court him?  God knows I wouldn't want to be dragged into the level of insanity that Geoffrey Botkin would level on a potential suitor unless I was certain the person I wanted to marry liked me!

The last theme is "Weird theology begets weird actions":


  • Do we say “no” to the inner voice that says “You’re not in any position to call someone to account for something – you’re a sinner too!”
  • Do we own the responsibility for our own sin, without blaming others?
  • Do we let other people dictate our sense of right and wrong, to the point that we feel guilt over things that weren’t wrong?
  • Do we ask first what God thinks about everything, before consulting our own inclinations and feelings?
  • Do we approach situations asking what we have to personally gain or lose?

  • The first question is based on the strange theological premise that sin is sin and therefore all sins are equally bad.   I don't understand the rationale for that - at all - because I grew up in a church where sin is bad - but sins that hurt other people are a whole lot worse than theological sins.   For example, skipping church on a Sunday or a Holy Day of Obligation or eating meat on a Friday in Lent are both sins in the Catholic Church.  Murder, rape and adultery are also in the Catholic Church.  The second batch is a whole lot more serious - with much more serious consequences - than the first batch. 

    This is why so many Catholics were horrified when the sexual abuse cover-ups became widely known.  Enabling someone to abuse a child or parishioner is SO MUCH WORSE than causing the Church to get bad press.  The laity in the pews know this - so how the hell did a bunch of bishops and cardinals fuck that up? 

    The Botkin Sisters have made ONE statement that deviates slightly from their father's belief system; they don't believe that rape victims who didn't cry out should be killed.  I'm glad they've made that slight step away - but I'm not going to be lectured by two women who have internalized their family-cult beliefs sans one example.   Let's be blunt - they've got a long way to go since they still believe victims who didn't cry out should feel guilty and ask for God's forgiveness.   That's a twisted, harmful belief that needs to be rejected!

    I'm not being wry in this next statement.  I don't know what God thinks about.  Saying that I know what God's preferred way of dealing with everything is a form of blasphemy to my way of thinking.  God is the Creator, Sustainer and Redeemer of the Universe who knows the struggles of all people and all things!  I've got some basic guidelines like "Make the World a Good Place for All" and "Don't be a Jackass" - but I'm making wild guesses most of the time.  Thomas Merton wrote a prayer that I find meaningful that includes the idea that we're probably screwing up when we do what we think God wants us to do - but hopefully God is pleased by the fact we're doing what we think God wants.

    Anna Sofia and Elizabeth Botkin - along with other SAHD in economically secure families like Sarah Maxwell or Jana Duggar - can afford to NOT count the cost of a personal decision to do right or wrong.  They've internalized their family's values so much that the likelihood of doing something that would get them kicked out of their comfortable paternal home is close to nil.   In their cosseted prisons, they don't have to worry about the economic effects of offending an outsider.  Sarah Maxwell posted  a quick blog post about why she lives at home where she claims that she's completely capable of living on her own - but chooses not to.  A few sentences later, she explains that her life is totally full between her Titus 2 work, working as a part-time bookkeeper for her brothers' businesses, and working on her next self-published book.   

    Only a woman  girl living at home with her parents would confuse four marginally paid contract jobs (which includes the books she writes) for the amount of income needed to live independently of her family at the same socioeconomic level. 

    The next post in the series covers the confusing, poorly written incident between Emily and Bryan.



    7 comments:

    1. Oh boy, another Emily and Bryan episode. I'd get popcorn if I didn't fear regurgitating it.

      I'd like to say I'm glad the B's don't believe women should be executed for not crying out, but I'm too busy being horrified it even needs to be said, that their sick father would ever voice such a thing in public (and let it remain on record even now). The fact that the girls actually claimed silent women were given the benefit of the doubt is a huge step away from the bluntly brutal words of their father, and public to boot. I hope it's one of many slow steps away from the insane core of the system their parents came from.

      "Do we let other people dictate our sense of right and wrong, to the point that we feel guilt over things that weren’t wrong?"

      That too is a less usual statement from them, considering how often they advise we get moral cues/advice from others. Their tendency in this series to make mounds of disclaimers about avoiding victim-blaming and false guilt, while still piling on one guideline after another, looks to me like they want to help women but can't quite step away from their family's tendency of legalistic rule lists. No wonder this series has so many parts!

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      1. Something about #MeToo has really frightened or thrown the two of them for some reason. I'm not entirely sure what's going on with them - but I'm glad they are taking a step away from their family's belief system. I just hope they can get around to recanting their more poisonous ideas quickly.

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      2. You're right, that has affected change. Before Phillips went down, they probably breezed around oblivious to how prevalent abuse of some kind from bloated cultic egos really was. Then down went Phillips, down went Gothard, and now women have come in waves denouncing numerous men of all kinds of influence. And as you noted, the Bot girls acted like it was news that that many women have dealt with such crimes. I think they're trying to address this helpfully, while still clinging to the legalistic frames and definitions they're accustomed to.

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    2. “Cosseted prisons”—yes!! Excellent description of the homes of these SAHDs!
      I am a SAHD survivor, raised in the height of the Vision Forum era, and just a couple of hours away from their headquarters (where my brother worked) in San Antonio.
      A friend just shared your blog with me; I can’t catch up reading fast enough—LOL! It is always exciting to find someone else debunking the QF lies, especially with such acerbic humor. 😆
      This is my review of the Botkins’ “So Much More.”
      https://recoveringdaughters.com/2018/02/01/so-much-more-than-this-provincial-life/

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      1. Thanks for including that link! I'm sorry you grew up in such a tough situation. I grew up in an average enough family and didn't run into any hard-core Christian Patriarchy/Quiverfull families until I was a teacher - and I was completely unready to help those students. There's not really any literature easily available on teaching kids who were raised in exceptionally sheltered environments before being tossed back into public schools by heart-breaking life events - so I started blogging on the topic to try and help other "outsiders and heathens" understand the level of upheaval that people leaving CP/QF are going through.

        And bluntly, I keep blogging because the hubris and meanness of many of the teachings angers me. Life is hard. There's no need to make life harder by adding a bunch of restrictive rules that make a handful of adult men feel like gods and kings by making all women, all children and many adult men minor pawns in their own lives.

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      2. Oh wow Mel, I had no idea you came across such students. And Melody, so sorry for your pain, but thank God you're free. And thanks for the link!

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      3. Thank you so much, ladies! 😊
        Many of us who have escaped the QF world, we write because we experienced firsthand the pain that these lies cause; it makes us passionate about sharing hope with our fellow survivors and those still trapped.
        But Mel (from one Mel to another 😉)—-you are not required to care, to write. And yet you DO! That is huge, so huge. Thank you.
        Your words are likely shining truth into more hearts than you realize. 💜

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